My Favorite Rotation

Putting all educational value aside, this February month has been my favorite rotation. Probably not Brendon's favorite, but definitely mine. At the beginning of the month, I felt like he was getting cheated out of opportunities to learn, but now, I could care less about that. (Brendon would probably not even say he was cheated in any way.)  You see, this month Brendon has been on his Internal Medicine rotation, following a doctor who works three, yes 3, days a week. With seven days in a week, Brendon has been home more than he has been away.

Not only did Brendon work less days than he didn't, but he also didn't need to leave for work until 9:30 am. Lucky for me, Brendon woke up with Henry in the morning whenever possible. But sleeping in wasn't the only reason I loved this month's rotation. I feel like--in anticipation of upcoming months spending time a part from each other while Brendon learns from busy hospitals in California--I have cherished time with him. The same way I cherished time like the good ole' days in Missouri, when time together was scheduled and sparse. We didn't necessarily DO a lot this month. But we definitely were together a lot.  In each other's presence, that is.  For the most part, we were both carrying on with own agendas; Brendon with studying, scheduling rotations, and taking regular breaks to chase Henry and me with cleaning, playing, and cooking.  But we were all together and I could talk with him whenever I wanted to.

My "caring less" about his opportunities to learn this month stem from completely selfish desires of having time together. I almost feel like this was our last time having a lot of time together (in our own element) for a long, long time. One more month before Brendon leaves for four weeks to go to California. Is it bad that I tear up cry just thinking about being a part as I type this? I don't know if I'm cut out for this. Hopefully the anticipation is worse than the bite.

Brendon is hoping for seven out rotations to California, and I sincerely hopes he gets each one of them.  But I hope, more than anything, we will only grow closer together. I hope we will appreciate each other more. I hope we will love each other more deeply. Now that's a lot of hoping.

Thank you, IM rotation, for giving us a lot of time together. And thank you, upcoming rotations, for helping me appreciate our "together time" more than I may have otherwise.